Bleeding Love...

Closed off from love
I didn’t need the pain
Once or twice was enough
And it was all in vain
Time starts to pass
Before you know it you’re frozen....

Course Conversion??

Music. Unwritten-Natasha Bedingfield.

Im not that sick. Its just that im well aware that my flu will be getting worse once I go out since the current wheater indicate -3. So Ive decided to take a step back,stay at home and enjoy the quite moment. Yohooo!!=)

Yesterday, since we ( me and my friends) discussed alot bout expenses, esp during our trip to Spain in July, Ive been thinking. I would treasure the opportunity to become a banker, alot. Haha. I think the gene from my dad makes me admire accounting,economic or something to do with it. But bec in Junior Science College, my dad strictly did not allowed me to take accounting. Even as the additional subjects. No cross path for accounts & me then. But Im still thankful for the life I have now..
Ive been wanting to join the corporate job, dealing with ppl and esp the bank. Till now I cant find any crossroad for medicine & banking ? Er.. except for the panel clinics. Hehehe.God,any ideas ppl? Im not that good in managing my things yea i knoe lol, my clothes especially (harhar).. But hey im pretty cool in managing my money tho its abit off sometimes. (all the time). Pretty much whinning, its just that i think its OK to look at your past life once awhile.

Ive been contacted by a friend of mine from Johor yesterday evening. It was a suprise since we havent keep in touch with each other for quite sometimes. And yea he came with alot of updates of life and stuff, even left me a memorable sms :

"Whatever problems that we mite have.. Yang penting mcm Nabi kate, orang mukmin itu bile diberi nikmat kebahagiaan dia bersyukur - dapat pahala... Apabila diberi ujian, masalah, dia bersabar, diberi pahala juga. So, dua2 dapat pahala..Hidup ni banyak persoalan tp kita tak perlu risau dgn persoalan2 ini,mungkin Allah sengaja menguji hambanya.."

Its a comforting message. He's having a hard time for himself . Well, who doesnt rite!

Till then.
Wassalam

A visit of Menteri Terengganu.

Bismillahirrahmanirrahim..

Assalamualaikum wbt

Fatigue and sleepy. Hehehe.. Last nite was a blast in embassy, well, i've attended the Meeting for anak-anak Terengganu since the their minister paid them a visit.

DAAA, I knoe obviously im not one huahua but i went there on behalf of the RMSA members.Luckily these anak Terenganus was awarded with 200USD last nite. All of them.Cis. (How i wish Lim Guan Eng wud come and do the same ;( ..). Furthermore, I had the opportunity to eat at the same table with En. Razali, I think he's one of the important ppl, in Yayasan Tganu, if im not mistaken,The Head. (Luckily dia baik, so kenyang jgk aku makan tak pyh kontrol=p)

All of them, the delegates are very friendly to the students,very2 humble I can say. Tganu is about to send more ppl doing medicine outside the country, Russia is one of the place-of-choice. And for Engineering too.
We came back after a great dinner around 11. This week Immunology is killing me slowly actually but, yea i had extra time for myself before the killing last 2 subjects plus exams in 2 weeks. Back to books. Chiows.

wassalam.

Some people think they are good producers. They enjoy making dramas. Yarkss.

At the end of the day faith is a funny thing. It turns up when you don't really expect it. It's like one day you realize that the fairy tale may be slightly different than you dreamed. The castle, well, it may not be a castle. And it's not so important happy ever after, just that its happy right now. See once in a while, once in a blue moon, people will surprise you , and once in a while people may even take your breath away.

Yea well, I am not possessed at the current moment. Perhaps later. I remember my senior back in SMAI once told me, we will only be famous of two kinds of things. By a good behaviour or bad one. U make your choice. Nevertheless,there r many posers who'd choose the latter. The reason y is because they think they are 'cool' by acting so, they produce "dramas", a good one.
Sadly the fact is dat they dont realise that ppl just take them as another moron on earth. God.
Good luck in ur future dramas!er..Doctors?

Okay.. part from that. Life gives us alot of options. Quoted from an article,
Decisions, choices, options!

These are the things in life which you will have to make in order to decide what’s best for you. It is important to weigh the options you have carefully. So when you finally make up your mind, you leave no room for dismay.

Looking back, Ive turned down quite a number of offers. I dont regret them anyway for u know
there are reasons it all turned down at that time - a valid one.

1. Offer to study in Aussie (MARA) biotech - turned down.

2. UIAM Matriculation (Medicine ) - turned down.

3. Pursue the English Course at British Council (Upper Intermediate)
- turned down.

I was given with many good opportunities but I had the option to choose. Those are some of the good offers that I have received, but taking all things in, I chose to turn down the offers. Sometimes, it is not just about how well the study place is known, or how promising the future can be for you. It is just about your passion. And what you love to do.

Sure, life has got its up and down. But I know Allah is always there, guiding me, and giving His best, for me and my future.

Way to go, MAMA.

I wud want to make this life easier for me. Currently reading Normal Fetal Dev & Growth of 10th teachers ( I owe myself another 5 topics today).

This evening I attended CME organised by RMSA, spending time on Malaria and Endocrine disease which I got myself correct. (yeay!). The pt comes at first with CC ( chief complaints) similar to Diabetic Patient (DM normal symptoms like Polyphagia,polydipsia,polyuria - nocturia esp..blabla) but when it comes to the Family History of Brain tumor; there I wud like to include my Cushing Disease in the Diagnosis as we knw, having cancer in the family exposes an extremely high risk of inheritance.

I called home this afternoon(around 4pm Msia tyme) talking with my mom. Requested for a new baju kurung for my graduation. Cant believe it I talk crap as eg. this sentence - ' Semua org ade baju baru, Lisa sorg je takde =('.. har har har.. Its Funny. I knw I sounded like a retard-kindergarden gurl. WELL, what to do, i realised it too late after i hang up the phone. Luckily she come with the
consolation ' Ala ada yg ungu tu baru pakai sekali, and baju Nana cantik warna brown. Nnt Ma htr dua2. Nak buat baru tak padan dgn nk tempah lg, ur graduation in Msia nnt kita buat baru'.
--> See,phew.. hehe. I'd always be a child to my mom, small one i meant. I envy my sissy Nana, she always comes up with a nicely designed baju kurung/kebaya. Surely better taste than mine:)). I hate to make things difficult , ended up wearing the same old things. Hey but careful, when it comes for me being fussy u wudnt wan to come near me then;p.

Study has been very boring these few days. But i need to,i have to. Perhaps for the rest of my life then. Of the title above, I just cant wait to see all the future "mama's" in the labour room in O& G dpt. which i last saw during my 5th clinical years. I hope I grad with flying colors theoritical knwlegde of medicine as im working with humans, emotionally oriented object which can feel the Pain, Sensitivity. (Accurate diagnose/cure/advise,prevent)

Spain & London getaway~!

Yeap. Im off to this soooooooo-longed-to-go country (Spain) for me rite after graduation,Insyallah. Wud be my last destination afterall.
Checklist status:

1. Ryan Air Domestics Granada-Barca = confirmed
2. Luggage Bookings = confirmed
3. Barca hostel = confirmed
4. Flite to and fro Moscow = Confirmed
5. Accomodations and ticketing (London) = Shu's friend, ticket kiv
6. Domestics Barca- London = Confirmed
7. Madrid Hostel = Confirmed

That are the few things that need some catch-ups later. Drop by London to shop since the GBP falls great againts other currencies. *drool*

So Long , Jimmy,,

Bismillahirrahmanirrahim..

Assalamualaikum wbt..

And thats the song i used to listen again n again during my jr 3rd year by James Blunt. This Sat is not as good as it supposed to be, dim cloudy wheather but hey i aint gonna sleep bec yah. Had enough beauty sleep last nitey ^_^...

Now its 915am. Havent had my breakfast yet, wandering around some blogs and catch myself with this one topic CRF ( chronic renal failure). A very familiar one. But hardly remember the management. So guess I'd work my ass of this morning on this topic with Kumar & Clark's help, with reference to Msia Hosp doses of Sarawak's handbook.

Guess dats for now. Will be writing more later when i feel empty.
Wassalam.

p/s- that was my cuzzie Nabilah & hubby wish u both happiness in life forever! blessed with many childrens ahaks;)

Kelas Onkologi (Cancer)

Bismillahirrahmanirrahim..

Assalamualaikum wbt..

Best giler ah mgu ni kelas relaxx... oncology lecture je.. balik awl.. n tak tensi ( paling penting ) ..
Harini bgn awl kul 5 still x smpt nk bfast sbb ralit.. asyik .. and lastly mkn bun apple ( ablochni pirozhki) kt hosp... nice one.. yummyumm...

...Huarghhh...(yawn)

Bismillahirrahmanirrahim...

Assalamualaikum wbt...

Harini or pada ketika ini aku tersangatlah mengantuk.. sambil revise psl Lymphoma kt Clin Medicine .Macam biasa la org kate mike klu bkk buku je mstila ada aura2 mengantuk tuh kan... Skang pukul 620 pagi, kul 8 nk g class. Mgu ni kelas Oncology, blaja pasal cancer :

1) Cancer Overview
2) Malignant Tumor Progression
3) Molecular biology of cancer
4) Cancer (Clinical)
- screening
- diagnosis
- staging
- treatment
- prevention
- M & M ( morbidity and mortality)

p/s = senarai kt atas tu checklist aku je..keskes..

Smlm dah settle like 30 % tiket utk g cuti-cuti luar negara..yuhuu.. heh(sob3 bile pk bab duit).. lepas grad insyallah..
x sabar nak keje, lagi around 2 months lebih sket nk balik, in spite of all the hassles being told by fellow friends and moron,insensitive bloggers bout working life in homeland.. i wud still consider dat i need to prepare myself to the world; not that it had effect on our self-esteem at any cause.

Ok nak sambung blaja.. sambil melayan lagu hadith 6, and atas nama cinta ... err.. ter 'encounter' this type of song act..then mtk dgn are.. ape2 source nasyid - are (hazman - the junior).. comp aku xde nasyid.Bukan xdak sbb aku x dgr ok, aku mmg delete semua lagu pun.. xnak kasik slow,semua letak dlm iPod je..huahua..
next time pulak .. wassalam..

Lalalala.. Perut Lapar Hati Pun x Suka..=(

Nobody wants you...
Nobody makes you happy..
Nobody likes you..
Nobody misses you...
Nobody wants good things for you...
Nobody care about you.
Dont cry!


For my name is..nobody=') -Nurul Alyaa Rashid-

Assalamualaikum wbt... Hehe..

The short intro was actually an sms sent by my youngest sissy Alyaa..(makes my day coz dah lame x main sms2 foward2 nih ha...mls@ costly ok 1 sms to Malaysia). She's in form 3 currently studying in Mrsm Langkawi ., school? boring..blablabla...I like to tease her, alot. especially when im bored during weekends got nothing much to do.(apart fr study which i think kinda lame if i keep on mentioning in out here=)..ngee )
I like her voice, cute on the phone. but she's bigger than me if u see her,haha.. in sense on height n weight. I need to 'bajet' the time she went out for outing coz its illegal to bring hp to school. Biasela .. budak skolah..borinnnnnnnnngg.... harharhar..

As usual, I forgot to buy my roti and my telur fr the kedai downstairs.. kalau tak esok dah leh bfast scrambled egg dah.sluurrpp... hm.. I shud start gettin my ass off this chair n cook. Esok ade test zachut.. need to revise back all the endocrinology diseases that ive learnt the week through..
Guess... cya!!
wassalam..

p/s- gamba maggi di atas ialah hasil kelaparan aku yg begitu kronik.. hehe.. dlu masa skolah irsyad seriyes gile x nak makan maggi until this one girl ckp aku terdengar " kawan abg aku makan megi masuk je u".. so.. aku pk masa tu klu mkn megi aku pn smpt masuk u.. (siap nk keluar dah ni,insyallah..heheh).. still its x elok utk sllu..emergency call sahaja.sekian.

Endocrinology..

Hyeeeeeeeeeeee....Assalamualaikum...

Woweee..its been a while aight?? So today i'd like to blabber bout my current cycle , Endocrinology and how has it been for the past 3 days.

Basically this sem we are just repeating those weve learnt last semester, few glands that are important for our body ; Hypothalamus-hyphophysis (Head), Thymus , Thyroid (neck), Adrenal (kidney), Ovary (Woman).

Boringggggg...all day long bout the study thingy, I know. But what to do, next month will be the final class for us the finalists here. And July's approching, meaning that somehow my footsteps is toward the hectic-so-not-dream job as an Intern. I shall stop whinning as i knw the upcoming job going to be a noble job (provided with right intention)-serving human's need.
(and as His slave's of course)

I had my early breakfast at 6am, nasik with ayam masak merah..lol. Cook it with fresh red chillies plus lots of onions n lemon grass. Taste - great!!!! =p (except for the fact that it is kinda spicy)..
Later on i went to class, around 745 am. Arrive at 910, 10 mins late but the teacher wasnt in yet. Lucky me,weeooo.. The class is abit compressed coz we squeeze in 2 groups together. Hypoxic-not. The ventilation is still good somehow.

Around 12 we follow ward rounds,checking these patients with endocrine diseases such as Diabetis Mellitus (kencing manih), Underdeveloped (maybe due to lack of Somatotropin Hormone) and few more. What caught my interest is that this lady,A, age 22, but actually she looks like a child, 143 cm height, and no secondary female sex characteristic. Its an unusual case, not that ive seen much in Russia. She did attend a Genetic Centre to run some test, and the defect is actually in her gene. Not because of the hormonal dysbalance or interruption. Somehow there's probability that her mother mite experienced injury/trauma during her pregnancy or etc.
I feel sorry for her, as i can see that she's quite unhappy with the presence of many med students around her.(we are about her age tho..).

Shortwhile after that we buzz off bec to class, do few check-ups on a 16 year old boy suspected having Cushing's Disease (Tumor in Pituitary Gland(head) ).. Pendek cite, most common symptoms is sudden weight gain, manifest by central obesity. Then we did some palpations on his neck ..
Oleh sbb ms tu tak ramai org dlm kelas ( yg td ramai2 semua dah cabut balik lepas lecture) Aku buat again dkt Jetman, classmate aku sbb last2 tension takut x dpt buat dgn cara yg betul. Spttnya lepas lecture balik,ramai org balik sbb igt dah takde class. Sbb masa tu awal lagi, aku rasa tak worth plak balik awal dah dtg jauh2..balik blk xde anak pon nk jage..hehehe..

So alkisahnya tula sikit sebanyak ape yg jadi harini..harini tensi lg time balik class sbb ttiap kali naik lif hostel msti lupe nk singgah kedai bawah beli roti and telur. Roti utk breakfast, telur reserved food. Incase malas2 kan..telur penyelamat.. protein tinggi tuuue... haha.. Bukan ape,malas nk naik trn lif 2-3 kali.. bertapa je dlm blk.. sikit lagi jadi batu belah batu bertangkup..ups.. heh heh..

Malam ni dpt nasi ayam free..weewoo! Rezeki..alhamdulillah...

Live will be very busy from now on.. focus harder..will enjoy my every single day as student before we all go bec to msia and become slaves... huahuahua...
till then,
wassalam..